About four weeks ago I attended church for only the second time (possibly third?) since my relapse started in January. Although it defied reason, I awakened from a fairly sleepless night and felt eager to go. So I went.
I seated myself on the outskirts of our large sanctuary–apart from others to avoid perfume, cologne, and germs. A few minutes later, a perfume-laden lady sat immediately behind me and, within moments, I was so fuzzy headed I could barely think. Resorting to instinct perhaps, I rushed into the church office, confused about what to do next. My son quickly joined me, ushered me into my husband’s office, and once ensured that I would be okay, left to inform his dad. After he prayed for me, of course. 🙂
I spent the remainder of the service lying down on a couch in the conference room, tucked under two jackets (it’s chilly in there!), eyes closed. Although any observer may have presumed I had fallen asleep, I was simply resting, listening to Pastor Mike over the TV, nestled against my husband. At the end of the service I felt restored enough to drive myself home safely, so off I went. And thus concluded my second (or possibly third) church attendance in almost a year.
This event started my ole brain to thinking again. I pondered that although I had made several changes to my home environment over the past few months, it was not enough to prevent me from having a drastic response when my body interpreted a substance as a toxin. I had not done enough to relieve the toxic overload on my body so that it could handle the unexpected.
My mind reviewed what it understood about the body’s ability to filter toxins, and remembered that the liver is the king pin of the organs in dealing with toxic substances. Well, in today’s world, online research is only a step away from mental processing, so I pulled up my search engine and I was off.
My initial instinct had been that my body desperately needed a liver cleanse, and according to all that I’ve researched, it appears that I was correct. However, a liver cleanse isn’t as simple as I had thought. A liver cleanse should be accompanied by a kidney cleanse. But before I do either, I probably first ought to do a colon cleanse. And perhaps a heavy metal cleanse. And definitely a parasite cleanse. So many! But then I recollected that my body isn’t just a little sick, my body is very sick.
Although I have made several internal improvements over the past few years, I still have to do “clean up.” I’ve made dietary changes (gluten-free, casein-free, and low sugar). In the past year I’ve added a couple of daily Apple Cider Vinegar drinks into the mix. And, of course, I drink tons of water and eat loads of fiber. In spite of these things, my body still cries out for relief.
So guess what we’ll be doing. Well, mostly “I,” but I do need a little help in the “we” department. A parasite cleanse should be participated in by everyone in the home because of how easily those little buggers are transmitted. Yay family! (They’ll appreciate me in the end, you’ll see!) Although not one of them is as excited as I, my little eyes well up with tears at their willingness to do something sacrificial for me just because they love me and long to help me achieve a little more health.
I feel for them, though. Can you imagine going back to school/work and talking about what you did with your family over vacation?? “We went to Disneyland!” “We went skiing!” “We did a parasite cleanse.” *giggle* *Sorry, fam!*
Anyway…I don’t know what my individual results will be, but even if it’s just a slight improvement, I will consider it worth it. And I know it will be quite a long journey, encompassing several months as I move from one step to the next. But I’m hopeful. And, most importantly, I remain prayerful–still desiring only God’s highest for my life.
And my family–forsaking the desires of their flesh–will stand supporting me along the way.
“For the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit” (Romans 14:17).